I found it difficult to get up this morning. After the (unexpected) long weekend, I felt like I didn't have the energy to go back to work yet.
But I dragged myself out of bed nonetheless, prayed, and brewed coffee. Then rushed through the rest of my morning routine.
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I'm already at my office as I type this. Before plunging into my paperwork, I just wanted to take some time to look back at my weekend.
As I said, it was long and rainy, but as I reflect now, I see that it was pretty special.
Because we were stuck at home, my kids and I had lots of opportunities to play. I am reorganizing Jaden's room (again) so that it'll be more conducive to his kind of play (and learning) these days. He's a real preschooler (and Grade 1-wannabe) now, so I wanna make sure his room has enough toys, books, and activities appropriate for his age. He's also been asking for a bunk bed (he thinks it's cool) and I think I'm gonna give in if that's the way he'll enjoy sleeping in his room.
My time with Sophia was equally precious! I wish I could say we did something fantastic, just the two of us, but we really didn't. I feel, however, that this weekend was extraordinary for us as mommy and daughter.
|I blinked, and suddenly she's no longer a baby...|
In a rare moment, I felt so strongly connected to her and I finally saw clarity in what I can do for her as her mother. I've always wondered--no, second-guessed myself--if I was doing the right thing for Sophia. You might think I've figured it out long ago because she's already my second child, but hey, she's a different person altogether. You know that Letter to my Second Child, which went viral among moms? Well, hagulgol ako dun because it resonated in me so much. For two years, I struggled with doubt and even guilt for not being the kind of mother that I was to my firstborn--the OC type who memorized by heart all the firsts, posted every picture of my child on Facebook, went on and on about milestones, and gave only organic/natural superfood.
I think it's time to admit I am a different mom with Sophia.
And that I'm finally okay with it.
My daughter is, as I said, a person all her own, and I now understand that she deserves a mom all her own too :)
So there you go. My musings for this Monday morning. Wrote them down for posterity... and inspiration. :)
Have a blessed week!!!